You came after your FAM outing, looking so happy. It makes me feel happy yet inferior of myself. At the foodcourt, you kept looking at your phone and smiling. I got this feeling that the messages are from him. I tried my best to look normal in front of you, yet I'm abnormally talking, as I don't really like to talk much.

After Vanneh went off the bus, i was all along thinking of Jason's advice: Forget you as you are too wild for me, and i almost teared. But it's ok, since you're happy being with him, so be it. I can't change the fact you're already with him. I've lost my chance once too many times. Letting you go is also a way to love&respect you as well. I'm getting on with my life. I think this shall be my last post for a very long time.