Went to Sentosa today with Nitro, Kang, Minyou, Matthew, Addy, Jason, Nicole, Heidi, Sky, Xuan, Aloy, Eugene, Amanda & few others which i'm lazy to mention since i am not sure of their names. Met up first at Habourfront at 1045 when it's supposed to be 10, due to some 'unforseen circumstance'. Then went to eat at Seah Im Hawker Centre (: Treated chicken rice heheh -evil laughs at vis! Then went to meet up with Amanda and her two other friends, and waited for Aloy and Eugene to arrive. And off we go to Sentosa by bus. Rotted for 1 hour or so before getting down into the waters with the others x.x Then about 3/4 plus, Xuan, Matthew, Jason, Nicole, Sky and few others arrived. Swam till about 1730 and got off the island. Rotted again at vivo outside the monorail station then at Sky Park till about 1930 and went home by bus (1.5 hrs). Was damn hungry by then, so decided to go kopitiam and pack food home, then saw parents eating there lol. And home sweet home.

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errr... Just came back from some career guidance talk thingy, was quite interesting, esp. the last half hour when Akmal, Danielle and Stephanie 'interviewed' Ron LOL. Oh yah, also got back my physics paper, AND IT SAVED ME LIFE YAYYYYYYY! XD! Overall, i suppose a B3/4? And added one more mark to my Emaths o:! Supposingly, should be adding two marks, then that motherfucker Derrick Quek had to spot a mistake in my graph qns.. Was slacking all the way from 11 to 2 hah, no lessons. Then the career guidance workshop from 2 to 5, skipping detention (:! Detention was for last week friday de, budden never go, then detention on today, tmr and fri ):! Fuck my memory.

ermermerm, dunno what to blog abt today, yah. Almost whole day no lessons, cos some china students came to our school again. Was finding people to sms with me, only three replied l:

Just one thing, Chemistry is screwed 53.5/100, no face see yiying already LOL.

Oh yah, solques just reminded me -.- also had Os MT LC just now (STM LAR DEY!). Quite ok luh, most of them tikam. 4th passage was the easiest. And i almost fall asleep even before the exam started due to the music they played on the radio. (For those who dunno: Yes, they used a radio station to broadcast the exam countrywide.)

'Two students talking', LOL was talking to jor, as she wanted to see the picture of a Maglev train from my txtbk. But i did not bring back txtbk, so yeah LOL. Next time then.

Christine Glass - My Love Will Get You Home

If you wonder off too far
My love will get you home
If you follow the
wrong star
My love will get you home

If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love
will get you home
Boy, My love will get you home

If the bright light
blinds your eyes
My love will get you home
If your troubles break your
stride
My love will get you home

If you ever find yourself
Lost
and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you
home
Boy, My love will get you home

If you ever feel ashame
My
love will get you home
When there's only you to blame
My love will get
you home

If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back
on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home
Boy, My love will
get you home

If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get
back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home
Boy, My love
will get you home
Boy, My love will get you home

'You never lose by loving. You always lost by holding back.'

'The greatest pain that comes from love is loving someone you can never have.'

'Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.'

'When I see you smile and know that it is not for me, that is when I will miss you the most.'

'I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had. But, I can’t because I know you won't come after me, and I guess that's what hurts the most.'

'When It's clear that you don't feel the same way for me... the problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you.'

'I hate you...and then I love you...it's like I want to throw you off a cliff....then rush to the bottom to catch you... '

'It hurts the most when i can actually feel your heart crying.'

'I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I felt and still you would not understand. So now I leave without a sound, except that of my heart shattering as it hits the ground.'

'Oh, I shouldn’t care or wonder where and how you are. But I can’t hide this hurt inside my broken heart. I’m fighting back emotions that I’ve never fought before, ‘cause I’m not supposed to love you.'

Though these quotes aren't originated from me, but they seem to describe how am i feeling at the moment.

Today, got back my Maths paper. Dang lost to michelle again i think =.=! A1 for P1 (76.25/100) and C6 for P2 (52/100). Overall is 64/100 B4 T_T! Mich got 69 B3, heard from someone that Akmal got A2 wtf?! ): Now more people thrashing me in maths ew!? Then Geog paper, confirm+chop+guarantee fail, even though i haven't seen the paper. D&T paper, only two passes i think, Mich and WeiJie :x Mich is a 'monster' LOL Sorry if got the chance to see this, Mich. Tmr i think will get back Chemistry o:? So yeah, bye for the moment.

The thought of you being sad, makes me want to cry my heart out, taking a knife and commit suicide.

Just read a email which was somehow true, especially the guys' point of view. It goes like this:

'Guy's point of view this is very cute!
And even written by a guy!
You might agree with it, but when it actually happens 99% of girls don't realize it 'til it is too late and that guy who did it is so frustrated that he has moved on to someone who will take notice.
From guys’ point of view:
We don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.
We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned. Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till he morning.
Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong. We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.
Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
Take Advantage of the mood im in.
LET US PAY FOR YOU!
DON'T 'FEEL BAD' We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say 'thank you.'
Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.
You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.
Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.
Or my t-shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.
Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing.
See the beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
Don't talk about how hott Morris Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care.
You have girlfriends for that.
Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/’beautiful’?
I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of.
On the other hand I’m not saying i wouldn't like it either.

Girls point of view: I cannot stress this enough: IF YOU AREN'T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A GUY, DON'T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE.> DITCH HIS SORRY DISGRACE-TO-THE-MALE-POPULATION ASS, AND FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT YOU WITH UTTER RESPECT
Someone who will honour your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.
Someone who will stop what they’re doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..........AND ACTUALLY MEAN IT!
*****Give the nice guys a chance***** >
Holding Hands
Girls: If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times.
Guys: Grab it if it happens more than once.
Cuddling
Girls: When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold.
Guys: Automatically move closer to her. >
Movies
Girls: During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder
Guys: Lift her chin up and kiss her.
Loving each other
Guys: When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too... And mean it.
Laying below the stars
Girls: When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat
Guys: Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers. Now make a wish about something you would like to happen Between you and your crush....
Guys: no grabbing!!!
Guys repost this if you agree.
Girls repost this if you think it's cute.
Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this, so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost this.
Now copy and repost this; if you don't you'll have bad relationships for 69 years.
By 12 am tonight your one true love will realize how much they want you.
If you don't repost this, you will have bad luck for your entire life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'

It pains in my heart, knowing you're sad. But it is even more painful, knowing it only after someone has told me about it. Dulan with myself.

Met up with Matthew and Sky first at PS, then a friend (forgot his name). Went to meet up with vis and others after that. Meet liao waited for xuan. Meet liao (again), go carpark smoke o: while waiting for more ppl (Nitro and friends) to come tsk. All went to 'that' place and waited for our 'prey' to arrive, while vis kang me were at the other side. Minutes ltr, a call came and was told to wait at that place, waiting for 'notice'. Then 7-11 and went into the mall. o.o chua dio when saw jor, was with her relative (mum?). Met up with jason near one of the toilets, waiting for them to come out. Out liao, think they noticed us too, was diao-ing us all the way. Then followed them outside. Moments later, just went to confront them. I didn't go yeah -.- was stopped by jor and few guys just to 'take care' of the girls (Xuan, Elly, Heidi, Jac, Nicole). yahlar for me own good ^^v! Then for no apparent reason, went to vivo -.-! Went to C.E first to buy sweets, was greeted with a sneeze from a FAT jeeby malay girl. She was just walking pass me when she sneezed, and parts of her saliva 'aeroplaned' to me face _l_! Was diao-ing them all the while in C.E (Her bf, friends and her). That was also why i was damn pissed off. Some of you did notice. Went to Sky Park after that and waited for the guys to come. Went to Daiso to get some drinks with vis. Was asked the same qns again abt 'her'; whether i've still got feelings for her. Slack till 9+ and went home, sending off nicole and heidi first at TPY and AMK. Bought a Ramly beef burger and bird nest drink along the way. Reached home parents not around hur? Should be back either later or morning 4-5am.

Ok bye.

Do it if you want to, it's easy.

Ytd got temperature check, then forget bring thermometer, sua. Another 50 cents to school charity LOL imma very good. While waiting, that bastard Mr.Tham (Thumb) came to talk to us again. Yawn- was dozing off while he talked, another day of detention hur? Then went back already check chemistry MCQ. Out of 20, got 5 wrongs, hmm not bad, physics dunno yet. Then maths, hmm redo some of the qns which most of us got wrong ._. Was able to all except one which i forgot how to o: Then recess for 1.5 hrs ^^v! Shiok bodoh. After school, then wait till 2pm for detention till 4pm -.-!

Today was X-country, ran around IJC&SSS eh? Was sitting at the bbcourt of IJC from 7-10 since im medically exempted x.x Went for a tour around the instituition. They had a trackfield (which our sch don't), a gym (our sch had one too, but don't allow students in.) beside the canteen. Also have a netball court made specially for girls above the bbcourt, you will find a staircase at the bbcourt leading to there. Their toilets kawaii nehs! The entrance door sign they put the male/female star signs: ♀/♂. Quite a number of chio bu there too LOL! Some of my female school mates, can also be, if it weren't for the uniform -.-! Ended at around 10, then decided to try my luck again to get into SLPS and see the teachers. PCB guard. Think they who. Visit teachers nia also cannot. There were a few other sec 1s juniors who were also from SLPS who wanted to get in and visit teachers, then i told them the matter lol. They were kinda dissapointed eh? NOT MY PROBLEM LOL! Then went to CWP to breakfast, was thinking of what to eat? Sick of macs&kfc already, was thinking of LJS, so headed down there first. They were still serving breakfast sets still, which i dun like, sua. So went to BK™ and had a BK Rendang Doubles (Upsized). Moments later, sufi and his mly friends came o:! Then ask me my meal is student meal not LOL. Then finally went home ._. boring life.

What you said just now made a great impact in me tremendously. I'm not sure whether you were referring to me or not. Maybe i got the wrong idea, but if you're referring to me, maybe you're right, i don't have the guts to tell you that i love you. Maybe it's because of my past experiences that made me very 'timid' after each broken relationship, fearing that the same consequences would occur again. Or maybe I'm just feeling that i'm unworthy of you, which is the truth. Yesterday someone pm me asking if i did really given hope on you, I just replied him 'given up already, but it just haunts me back'. I thought time could erase my memories of you, but it seems that it doesn't. Yet i still firmly believe that it could. Every time i see you, my heart just stopped. Emotionless, I would say. Nevertheless, I still do not wish to have a 'closer' relationship with you, though my 'other side' wish to be with you. All i could and wanted to say is that 'I Love You', and i always do since o5o6o8.

Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m OK
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doing It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

Labels: I Love You

Firstly, Welcome back to Singapore, Jie Kai!

Yesterday was the day when i started hating Malays (No offence.).

Met up with Jor&Mich at Lot1 first, then went on to find Jason at JE supposingly, when reached Batok, he was just outside the MRT LOL. Then we headed down to the airport to welcome Mr. Akaix. When reached, saw Sherman they all too hah. Then went to fetch Yiying Chemistry ._. told her the wrong terminal which was at the other end sua. Fetch liao went to gather with the rest at the arrival hall. Xuan, Kang, Elvis 'muacks', JJ, Matthew and Sky came too. About 15 minutes after or so, he finally came out o:! Then you know what blahblahblah lar. Distributed tidbits. Jor's coke kena confiscated LOL gek xim. Slacked outside the terminal. Minutes later, decided to watch a movie at town. So we headed down there luh while Sherman and the rest went home, i suppose.

Reached le PS, some were hungry already LOL. Eat liao went outside Sakae. Ok this is when the 'incident' happened. They were just talking about what movies to watch then Jiekai, jor and me were just sitting at the edges of the road. Saw some malay guys circling around them dunno what sai. Then one of them went to ask Matthew from where then tio whack. Matthew, JJ, Kang and Aloy tio. After that we just call the police. Sky went to call his gang diao zui. But then they are no where to be found. So we decided to send the girls home first. Took quite a long time 'persuading'. After that we just went home (JJ, Xuan, Jor, Jason, Aloy). Waited at pioneer mall for jor's mum to fetch her, then xuan's cousin came to talk to us. Talked awhile then Matt and Sky came to find us -.-? Chatted for like five minutes, exchanged hugs with xuan, and separated our ways. Was tonning at aloy's house for the night as i told parents im not going home. Thanks ah Aloy lublub. Was thinking about the girls along the way whether they ok not, esp jor x.x

P.S. Thanks for the hug xuan, it kinda made me feel better and at ease, thinking that you're fine after what had happened. Lublub you forever!

And my hair is thickening -.-

Ytd went out with Joranne, YiYing 'Chemistry', Michigano, Heidi, Jason, Kang, Sky. Also was Sky's bday celebration yesterday LOL. Met up at PS first then went to Parklane to find Eddie, settle some 'problems'. Bleah took him bloody long to come out: One snooker game, then Macs. Then you-know-what-happen liao (: Only Kang and him talked, the rest 'watched show', smoking w/e stuffs o: Then go back ps take sky's bday cake then go where liao -stm. On our way, saw Serene Heng. hurhur told us zhiyin was at mos, went there boh lang. Then jor, i think, sms-ed her, then reply she at kfc -.- ok few steps away nia. She was with her bf o: Talked awhile then zhao liao. o: Went back to the cafe to makan. Then went to vivo 'Sky's' park. Stayed there to decompose till about 9 before Ken (The one we met at geylang pub, Sky's friend.). Then chemistry gtg, must deng chu at 10. This is when the fun starts. LOL bday bash-ed sky, then throw corn flour on him. LOL. Lastly went home at 11, while the rest went to pub at Boat Quay

Tonight

I remember the times we spent together
on those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
tonight

I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

Tonight i've fallen and i can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you sat and told me about your Jesus
and how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here...

I sing,
Tonight i've fallen and i can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I sing,
Tonight i've fallen and i can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight...


Your Call

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
Call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
When you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes, what's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Fall For You

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

'Yesterday is history, Tomorrow is a mystery, Today is a gift. That is why it is called the Present'

Quoted from Kungfu Panda. Makes alot of sense. -uses the fingerhold- LOL

You're 67% Gemini

You Will Die at Age 58

'Not bad, considering your super wild lifestyle Want to live longer? Try losing a few bad habits.'

You Are A Romantic Realist

'You tend to be grounded when it comes to romance. Sure, you can fall hard... but only for someone you've gotten to know. And once you're in love, you can be a total romantic goofball... But you'd never admit it to your friends!'

You Are 92% Open Minded

'You are so open minded that your brain may have fallen out! Well, not really. But you may be confused on where you stand. You don't have a judgmental bone in your body, and you're very accepting. You enjoy the best of every life philosophy, even if you sometimes contradict yourself.'